Walk Ye In It

Insurrection

before i begin- let it be known that i borderline hate star trek and will always (and i mean always) be a star wars lover at heart.
that said- in the midst of my current funk (for full details see blog below) i had a moment of slight inspiration the other day while watching star trek: insurrection. why- you ask- would i bother wasting my time at 2 am to watch this ridiculous film...let's not attempt to cover motivations- instead- may i leap o'er the reasons why and try to share what it is that i managed to glean from this most unusual source...

2 things really:
1) i need to remember how to play
2) i need to learn how to live 'in the moment'

the first comes from a conversation between a child and an android
(a machine that looks like a human) Data (the machine's name) wonders what it would feel like to be a child because he has been the same dimensions since he was 'created' and will be the same way when he is 'switched off.' he cannot fathom what it would be like to always be changing and falling over your feet- in response the kid asks him if he plays- Data does not understand what it would mean to do something 'just for the fun of it'

so i asked myself if in the midst of all this 'big girl drama' if i had forgotten how to play...this may seem childish- but that is kinda the point now isn't it?

the second is from a conversation between the captain (the bald guy that plays the professor in X-men) and a woman (who lives on this planet that has made her sorta immortal and given her the ability to appreciate things slowly because time is no longer an issue for her and her people) she asks him if he has ever experienced a moment where time seemed to stand still- in response he describes the first time he ever saw his home planet from space- she explains that there is such power in that one moment- and that if we are always focused on what lies behind or what is to come that we cannot begin to feel that power or experience it's beauty

sadly- i am a person always reflecting on the past or contemplating the future- my thought patterns are typically oriented around 'when' or 'if' or 'then' instead of 'right now'...this manifests itself in my poor use of time and the paralyzing tendency to procrastinate. not to mention- if i am forever dreaming of the greener pasture- when am i doing the business of becoming that person i see in the vision????

i thought of these things as i walked through the park last week- it started to rain- i kept walking- it continued to rain harder but i kept thinking- and then i stopped-and walked over to the playground- in the rain- and began to swing-

just for fun

in the moment

posted by Charris @ 10:02 PM